Its sad to see that ive been neglecting my friends.Be it the primary or secondary or ITE.

I have been busy with lotsa stuff lately,my family.

Something new to the family is coming up && thats why.

Thus,i know my family needs lotsa preparation to be done & thats why.

But,am not gonnna make that as an excuse though.

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I start to realise this just now when i was having my shower.

Actuallly,i had having this thoughts way back after my ITE school close.

[self proclaimed ey]

Its like,i cant go out that often coz of several reasons.

My family practices strict rules & regulations especiallly me as am the problematic one.

Am not like those kids whom can go out,have fun & such.

There are reasons why i cant go out.& it all lies to myself.

Yes,i am happppy whatever happens or revolves around me.

I love my friends & my family,always.

So thats why,sometimes,i feeel kinda weird

& left out whenever am unable to attend something.

So jyeah.

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But,am just disturbed on things which are revolving around me lately.

Ive beeen bloghopping to my friends blog

& happened to see them posting about each other.

I mean,generally,it is a sweet thing to do as you get to express your feelings,says or thoughts about that person after sooon-gonnna-be-year together.

Well,honestly,am touched to whoever that post about myself

&& am reallly appreciate it loads gfs.

I dont have a problem about it but....nahh nvm.

I just feeel uneasy bout some of it.

Some that should be left astray & unsaid about it.

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Anyhooos,am glad that TG was the class of the year for me.

With the shits i had with some grrrls but turned out to be cute after solving it.

Am very happpy coz its a cycle in life.

Friend's pet,bitching,gossippping.

Oh gawd,sometimes am just blessed to be a lady & sometimes not.

To feel appreciated & love with the friends whom you are comfortable with.

Its great to see how things change drasticallly.

People like for who the way you are.

Nevertheless,to be able to comprehend whot your friends are saying is another thing.

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& i cant deny the fact that i love my grrrls alot.

They taught alot of things when i step into ITE life.

They are the ones whom i feel comfortable

& where i can call my 'comfort zone' for the past 6 mnths.

Where i can spill the beans out,anytime && hearing me well was lovely.

If i were to say 1001 words,it wont be enough.

Same goes to my family.

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Sometimes,i feel that family is still the best 'comfort zone' ive received for the past 18 years.

Even though there are arguments & downfalls we had,i still love them.

Nothing can beats the companion of your family.

I love my family eventhough i know i have been behaving sucky.

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In life,we just have to balance between family & friends.

Yes,of course i want to be with my friends alot!

Coz that is where i received my happy pills from.

As time flies by,i started to feel the misses alot.

I dont want to be selfish to my friends & my family.

I dont want to lose them either.

& am afraid of that happen!

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So jyeah,i have thought about it && i hope this wont set me thinking all the time.

I cant be happpy like you,but mos importantly,

am contented with whatever i have & around me.

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Ihope i got to convey my thoughts vividly in this post.

I just want to make this wise oppurtunity to clear my doubts.

I just feel that sometimes,we ought to spare some quality thoughts about it.

Am trying to be rational in all my postings.

So jyeah.

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May God Bless Me && my Loved Ones.

Amin.